I SUCKED. The composition was bad, the editing was
Exhibit A:
I know. The "then" is pretty ghastly (not the adorable family - just my terrible photograph!). The funny thing, though, is that I received SO much praise and encouragement from family on those first photos. I remember setting up a slideshow to show off my first photo shoot (the session in the "then" photo above, which was with gracious family members, thank God!), and my family ooh-ed and ahh-ed and told me how beautiful the photos were and how much potential I had. I was absolutely beaming and so proud of myself.
And now I look back at those photos and basically want to scratch my eyeballs out.
But like I said, it's so, so humbling. It's easy to forget our beginnings. It's easy to forget that we ALL start somewhere, and it's not at a place of perfection. It's a place of amateur fumbling, guessing, making all the wrong choices, making mistakes, displaying our weaknesses. And constantly pushing to learn, grow, and get better. That's the key.
Exhibit B:
I am so guilty of judging beginners too harshly, and this morning's little "exercise" pushed me right back in my place. If friends and family had been completely honest with me instead of so damn encouraging, I would probably not be where I am today. I would have shriveled up into a little ball of shame and embarrassment and lack of confidence in my amateur abilities, and I never would have grown. But the wonderful, kind, uplifting people in my life saw a glimmer of talent in me, and more importantly passion for the work, and they grasped on to that and propelled me forward with their kindness and words of affirmation.
And we all need to do the same. When someone in our life is just beginning something, even if we know better and know they suck right now, it's our job to lift them up, not tear them down. Because everyone starts somewhere, and it's not always very pretty.
In two more years, I bet I'll look back at my work now and notice all the flaws. The things I hadn't learned yet, the things I could have done better. But right now, wherever we are in our journey, it's important to be proud of what we're doing, how far we've come, and how much we've learned. Your only real competitor is the person you used to be.
